There is a thing which happens now, one of those damned-if-you-do, damned-if-you-don't situations. When there is an event or activity I want to attend, important enough to think that my best is expected, I get anxious. In the past I buried the anxiety, but now that I am letting myself feel everything the anxiety hits me pretty hard. I haven't managed to let it flow past after I recognize it. So I back away, at which point I feel guilt for wimping out. And I can't let the guilt just flow past either.

No wins in this situation. I still identify pretty strongly with the negative emotions, guilt, shame, anxiety, while if I'm concentrating I notice the positive emotions as they pass.